too much

i am too much. Intense. Fiesty. Determined. Dramatic. TOO MUCH. or so i have been told and i'm starting to think they're right. This one thing i work so much for maybe too hard for never happens. Why is it so hard for me to find love. Not the movie love all over the top n magical. That love i gave up on. I mean the love thts raw the kind where u have fights n arguements but u work it out cause u love the person. Where its balanced out with affection and actions.

But i;m going to stop looking and trying to find it. Right now in my life i"m about to graduate and need to get a job. Yet all i can think about is him n how becoming a millionaire is more important than being with me. I'm so mad i let the lil box with all the feelings i had for him pop open n now i have to put it back into its box.

Soo here i got to start healing again.....