What path leads to love?

So things with Griffin is well but now he is in Brazil for the holidays n i barely get to talk to him n well u kno wht they say when their out of sight out of mind n i feel it slowly goin away but idk he's still a possiblity

Swedish Mike is in Sweden to spend the holidays with his fam n even though i kno tht in late january is is goin to granada from med school i cant help be feel tht connection we have especial because he has had everythign i look for in a guy yet there he is goin before we get to see if it could happen and though we both didnt want to get attached to one another it is happening.

Marcuantonio wants to come back into my life after all the bullshit he put me through n i'm kinda giving him the chance to fix things even though i'm making it really hard. I'm scared i'm making a stupid choice by doing this.

I have all these n more guys talking to me n stuff yet i still feel alone at times n i'm scared to truely let any of them in because i dont wanna get hurt again. My friend's mom tells me i'm young n should date n not commit to someone but even as i date i wanna find tht one person i can be with even if it doesnt last for ever but i want to be with just one person.

I want to find a man that is passionate about his goal in his life as well as his woman, who is caring n loving, responsible n respectful, understanding, compassionate, who can be fun, goofy n carefree as well as be strong n assuring, a man that can see me with all my falws n weakness n love n accept them as he loves n accepts my beauty n strengths