honestly idk what to do so i'm going to do she told me to do n its blog about my feelings. so my best friend n i had a fight which all came about cuz i need someone to talk to n everyone else had either turned their backs or was part of what i needed to talk about. i needed to let out my issues about my parents, sister, friends, n well guys. she was gin through sum stuff herself but i had been there for her so i was hoping for the same but she turned her back on me like everyone else n i was hurt. so after a few days of asking for alil of her time n getttign refused i got even more upset than i was so when she said how r u one day i gave her attitude n she let her anger out on me n it got ugly. n somethings she said really shocked n hurt me tht she could say or think of me in tht way. n just cuz my issues seem small to u they arent to me n tht hurt more. we havent talked in a month n on n off i think about her. its been 4 yrs of being best friends and it hurts tht it seems to have ended but idk if she even cares. it been bothering n i try to ignore it n push th feelings away but its so hard.
How do u let go of a person tht was part of ur family?
how can i get rid of the hurt?
how do i stop wishing she was here when i'm out doing something tht i kno she would like to do?
how do i stop worrying if she's ok?
i part of me wants to fix things but last time things got like this i fixed it n i kinda want her to step forward n let me kno she cares about me too. tht she cherishes our sisterhood like i do.
so world u tell me what i should do?
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Look I love you to death but you blew up on me on a time that I felt like I wanted to die. It's like I was holding a gun to my face and you yell at me and then the gun blew off. I couldn't believe what you said. I've been there for you every time. And the last time we fought we didn't speak until you called me crying because you broke up with your ex. And regardless of our fight, I listened to you. This time when we fought I let out things that you did that hurt me. I didn't feel appreciated and instead of talking to me you burst out on me. I'm not gonna lie, I've been thinking about you especially since its summer and I enjoy your company. But how could you act like I'm never there for you? I've been there at your worst and happy days. You are like my sister. And this time when we fought, I just couldn't talk. I thought you wouldve understood as a friend and as a sister. I could've been dead and then what? You still would've just said, "have a nice life"?
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